Like so many of you – as I was watching the results of the election the other night… I felt like my life was being sucked out of me as I watched in utter shock of what I was seeing and hearing .
There were times when I had to turn off the tv and go to bed with hopes that I would wake up the next morning, miracle of miracles- many prayers would have been answered and Hilary would be our President Elect. This went on several times during the course of several hours. I found myself asking God for enough peace so that I could sleep because I was debating about wether or not I was still going to attend a funding conference the next morning and in order to do so I was going to have to get up and hit the road early.
That peace didn’t come when I wanted it to, so I found myself turning the tv back on around 12:30-1:00 in the morning with Trump still in the lead, and with a lot more red on the map. When I began to see the handwriting on the wall, that’s when I decided to turn off the tv for the final time and just begin to pray.
At first I felt like I was still praying for a miracle, but then the prayer began to transpire into me interceding on behalf of Hilary. By the grace of God I was able to put myself in her shoes and I felt a heavy sense of pain and disappointment.
Like many of you , I have a dream to fulfill my life’s purpose. Sometimes I like so many others, get discouraged because of the cares of this life and we push the dream aside.
Well, over the summer as I was reflecting on my life realizing that because of my personality and my mouth, that my job prospects were very slim to null; and therefore that it was probably a good time for me to create a job for myself and others as well. So once again, I decided to pick up my cross and match my faith with my actions.
Several weeks ago, I came across a ” Notice of Funding Available” ( NOFA) from HUD and put the conference for this NOFA on my calendar for yesterday ( November 9) – the day after the election. Even then I just assumed that Hilary would be President.
For the majority of October and the days leading up to election, I found myself laden with an extra burden on my heart that I could not put a finger on. I found myself going in waves of fighting depression and short spurts of joy. Honestly there were times especially this past week leading up to the election when I didn’t want to pray, I didn’t want to minister or connect with the very folk that I believe God sent me for/to, I couldn’t focus on my course and as a result I fell behind in my studies, allergies were giving me grief, finances were really acting funny and so on. It got to the point that I cancelled an important meeting that I was looking forward to , was seriously thinking about not going to the funding conference the next morning and on the brink of giving up and giving into the cares of life and this sense of foreboding that has been lingering for some time.
BUT THEN GOD!
God stirred my spirit early the next morning after only getting a couple of hours of sleep and encouraged me to make my way to the funding conference. And by His grace I manage to squeak through a quick prayer, shower, ignore my back account and head out the door in record time.
I saw the alerts/updates that were coming on my phone confirming the inconceivable ( I think I actually cringed the first time that I saw the term:phrase” President- Elect Trump) on my phone in addition to seeing a reference to Putin wanting to reestablish some sort of ties with the US and I thought to myself ” oh Lord , here we go”.
Somewhere between choosing to obey the voice of God and actually attending the conference, the heaviness and the sense of forebode began to lift. I believe it began to lift when I realized that I had (again- by the grace of God) decided to press on this time and not give up despite how bleak it was looking in the natural.
And as if God really wanted to convince me/reward me by letting me know that He was pleased with me- moments after leaving the conference He answered a prayer that I whispered to Him the day before- I asked Him to help me and to send an earthen angel to me that would help me. I believe that this prayer was answered as I was standing at a bus stop making my way home I got a phone call from someone that I was referred to a couple of weeks ago – who seems to share my passion for serving God and His people. I believe that’s when the real joy came through and is still here to a great degree- DESPITE!
So I realize that a lot of people are angry and are grieving because of the results…and I get that… I really do! I am also happy to see the people channeling their frustrations, fear, anger, grief and disappointment through the protests!! Yeah! That’s great to see people standing strong, united, making sure that their voices are heard. Do I sense another, perhaps even better OCCUPY? While you’re protesting and rallying– may I please suggest that you also put your brilliant heads together to draw up an action plan (s) to keep Obama’s legacy going. His legacy to serve everyone, to love everyone ( including the most vulnerable)…keep THAT legacy going! Like he said — don’t insult him!!
I seriously suspect that the election was rigged and that Putin played a big role in it. However, let us keep in mind what the best First Lady that this country has ever had (no offense to Hilary Clinton nor Jackie O, ) – ” when they go low , we go high” ( I think that is forever going to be my new mantra- life principle!).
So while we are going high and rallying – let’s also remember who the real enemy is- satan himself- and therefore let us ” look up to the hills from whence cometh our help” and rally in prayer first of all on behalf on Hilary and the entire Clinton family, President Obama and his family, Joe Biden ( really going to miss him😢), this nation and each other .
Whenever I was tempted to go into the dark place yesterday based on the results ..I had to keep reminding myself these three things: GOD IS STILL ON THE THRONE, HE HAS A PLAN, IF HE ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN, THEN THERE’S A REASON!
Somehow He’s working even this for our good! Stay strong, stay focused and please , please – KEEP PRESSING!!!😘😘🙏🏾🙏🏾😘😘🙏🏾🙏🏾
So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law.
The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.
Be still before the Lord
and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Trust in the Lord forever,for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.